This was not the race I had planned. In my worst dreams I would have never predicted this type of race or finish.
When the alarm went off at 3:45 I wasnt feeling it. I really wanted to go back to bed but I got up and got ready. Had a banana (mistake number 1) because I wasnt hungry enough of oatmeal and headed on the trek to the start line. I was surprised a little I was not sore at all from the 10k before but that was good. That meant I didnt push to hard and still met my goal!
It was dark and already in the 80′s. The crowds were cray cray. The bobbing and weaving while walking already started.
I was in corral D and they were watching much closer so there was no “sneaking” in to an earlier one. Even at D I didnt think it would take that long and I would be fine.
I let Kellie sleep in. No reason she needed to get up and sit for 2 1/2 or little longer. I should earn mother of the year this year between that and all the Disney trips I have taken her on and are planning.
The corral was so packed. You couldnt shift and they kept pouring people in. It was an insane almost 2 hours of just standing there with no relief. They said over 25,000 people were racing Sunday. CRAZY!
It started warming even more as the sun started coming up and I kept thinking if I could just get out of the corral I could go home and at least spend the day with my family. I wasnt feeling it. I wasnt in the spirit and I did not want to be there. There was no “magic” in my heart.
Finally it was our turn and I knew immediately it was not going to be pretty. I wasnt even a mile in and I grabbed my phone to text Dana and say I was miserable already and it wasnt going to happen. She was so sweet and supportive as always and told me to keep going and try to get my mind in game that my body would follow. It never did.
We immediately went through the parks and that was OK and there were times I just said screw it and kept walking and walking. My tummy started bothering me so I stopped at a restroom in the park after mile 3 and was there about 15 minutes just not wanting to start again. I kept telling myself that at the next medical tent I was quitting or if i got close enough to the hotel room I would quit. I passed the hotel and kept going. I kept walking.
Every now and then I would jog a bit. A minute at a time here and there.
There were a lot of water stops compared to yesterday and the course was SO much better with so much more support.
Med tents came and went and although I through a couple of tantrums and shed many tears I kept moving.
I turned my watch off at mile 4ish I think. I did not want to see the splits and I surely didnt want Dana to see them. I realized quickly that was dumb so at the 10k mat I decided to turn it back on and try to think of it as only 7ish miles to go.
I kept going and really appreciated the crowd support. The city was out in full force and was so fun to see.
I also tried to get back into the game by putting on my favorite podcaster to listen to (Lucho at Endurance Planet with Tawnee) and thought maybe if he was talking about running running running I would be more into it. That did not work either.
I hurt. I was sore. I was blazing hot. I couldnt cool down and I was still miserable. I STILL wanted to quit!
I passed another medical tent (the last) and for the first time stopped. I bio freezed up, I took whatever pills they had (tylenol I think) drank some cold cold power ade and took a cliff caffeine gel.
I had stayed up on hydrating with power ade and water and my chews. I thought the caffeine boost would help. It did. That and the entry into Angels stadium packed with people. Kids, adults, community members and families. SO AMAZING. With only a 5k left, I knew I would finish and started running.
I did a 1:1 ratio and kept with that pretty solid until mile 12 and saw my family. I cried. I cried a lot. Thankfully they hadnt been there long because Marc had the texts of time estimates but they were great.
I was spent. I was ready to be over and I ended up walking most of the last mile. I ran in the last 100 miles and got my medals.
I didnt feel like I earned them. I didnt even really want them. I found my family and bawled some more. My stomach was killing me again and I had to find a bathroom quick so I did and stayed there for a long long time. Crying and trying to regroup. Trying to feel better in multiple ways.
I told Marc to take the kids to the park and I would go back shower and take a nap and meet up with them later as it was our last day. Kellie refused to leave me and came back with me.
Dana called and we talked for a few which was helpful.
We showered and had lunch then both crashed.
The boys came back for dinner and I felt good. Refreshed and not very sore. So we all went to the park and finished the night on a good note.
All in all, while it was the worst race ever, I am proud I didnt quit. I am happy I did it and I am grateful for this family time. I will take it as a learning experience.
1) I hate walking! Seriously hate it. I spent 4 hours walking and never ever want to again. I want to now base build and RUN. I want to work on crosstraining, concentrate on my nutrition, lose weight, and build my base working on my mind as well. I will not sign up for another race until after Glass Slipper in February unless its for training purposes only and recommended by Dana.
2) Shame on me for not training more in the heat. Although this 90+ degree weather was a surprise to everyone, I should have been a little more prepared instead of avoiding heat runs at home.
3) SUNSCREEN even if you think you dont need it or need more. I burnt my face pretty bad with some great headband and sunglasses tan lines.
4) Watch the intake of electrolytes and course fuel if you arent used to it. I had major GI issues this race that continued well after and contribute a lot of it to that.
5) Dont ever give up. Even when you want to and even plan to. Keep going. Put one foot in front of the other and you will hit the goal eventually. Even if an hour and a half longer than you expected!
6) Disney races are CRAY CRAY and only because I have signed up and got plane tickets for Glass Slipper in Feb will I be doing another one. After that. Disney will be left to family vacations ONLY. If another race is to happen, it will be for the race only! Feb Kellie and I already have a plan which involves very little park time and lots of prep and chill time at the pool!
I leave you with happy pictures! Pictures that make this sad heart happy!