or maybe I just am.
First of all, no update yet other than there is no update. I am clear to run today with strap and need to downgrade my long run so we will see what Coach has in mind. I trust her completely!
Saying that, I am about tired of people thinking they know what I need and feel the need to talk to others and each other about what that is and then come to me for about the 4th time in the last few months saying “me and so so were talking and we think .. ” or I talked to so and so and they think your program is crazy you are doing.
Look, I KNOW I have chosen to put myself out there and even blog about my experiences. My first reaction was to say BITE ME and just crawl in a hole, not update Facebook, not blog but then I realized this isn’t about anyone but ME. My journey is just that. I value peoples opnion and look for advice when I feel lost, but I want to be in charge of asking or venting when I WANT not when someone else takes it upon theirself to give me their opinion and thoughts on my training plan. My reaction however was to say Thank you and while I am not versed on all things running, I am equipping myself with the knowledge and team/support group that is and that I completely trust. What I felt inside, instead of support and love, was doubt, questioning, wondering if I have made the right choices or have made some bad decisions.
This blog is for me to document my journey, for me to be part of this AMAZING running blogging community, to make friends, and to hopefully inspire someone someday. It is also for me to be accountable, to be cheered for, and to share my trials and celebrations. It IS NOT a place to whine and complain (altho I am sure that will happen as with anything there are frustrations and heartache) It is not a place to bring drama, last time I checked, I graduated 20+ years ago. It is supposed to be MY safe haven. MY space that I choose to share with the world ha! but its MY choice. I dont post personal things, I dont think this is the place for it and I respect myself and my family too much.
I am happy to report that while not everyone agrees, my plan is exactly where it should be and will constantly evolve. I do not know why or what others have to gain from the constant negativity but I have no room in my life for it and definately no room in my journey for it. I trust my team and with them all things are possible. I will stay educated and present and take this ride for all it is. A RIDE!
Its time to take control back and seperate myself a bit from the people that I do not believe have my best interests at heart or do not know how to show it. I think I am going to take a break from the Facebook world and all the high school drama that comes with it and I am not going to share my running stats to avoid any unwanted critiques about what I am doing, when and how I am doing it.
Whats a girl to do …… Come home and have a bunch of mango peach salsa and some pretzels! YUM!
On another funny note, I slept in my contacts and I shouldnt have so woke up to a swollen eye. Had to rock the Valentino Coke Bottles today but IT WAS SUNNY! Whats a girl to do …….